Wednesday, August 26, 2026

Author Series: Alka Saraogi and John Vater

Author Series

Alka Saraogi and John Vater 

in conversation with Out of Print


Out of Print: 
Hello, Alka and John. Thanking for agreeing to have this conversation around the chapter ‘Shyama Dhobi, Where Are You?’ from your novel in translation, Register Me as Kulbhushan. We are so pleased to have reproduced the chapter in Out of Print 60. It makes such a good introduction to the novel, situates us in time and place and conflict, and introduces us to the protagonist, Shyama, with nuance and clarity. And thank you, John, for the translation that we can sense is so deeply connected to the original text and brings the work to whole new readership. 


My first question is to you, Alka, and revolves around construction of fiction, narrative structure and storytelling. It is evident in this chapter that your engagement with conflict works on different levels. We are introduced to the larger reality of the violence, the displacement, and the disruptions that are part of the creation of Bangladesh. At the same time we are drawn into the intimate, familial levels of the clashes around food that drive Shyama to keep secrets about life experiences and choices. My question then is whether the decisions around the positioning of these narrative strands are conscious and deliberate choices you make, or whether they evolve naturally while developing the story? 


Alka: Hi Indira! 

When I started writing the second chapter of the book, on Shyama Dhobi, I immediately imagined him to be on the bank of the Gorai Ganga with the gun, in his new avatar as a liberation soldier.  

The river, or rather the separation from the river, symbolises the displacement of the people from the land of seven hundred rivers. This is also the place where Shyama used to meet Kulbhushan, the place where he hid himself from the world to ponder over his identity as an adopted child, and also the place where his father was gunned down by the Pakistani army. 

The Bengalis are a fish-eating people. I think it would be rare to find a vegetarian Bengali. I know from people in Kushtia that Gandhi had stopped at the station on his way to Noakhali and addressed the crowd. I imagined Shyama turning into a vegetarian on meeting him. His friendship with Kulbhushan Jain, perhaps, needed this non-conformity with his own people. The abstaining from killing birds, too, I imagined as part of the bond. Also, their visits to the shrine of Lalon fakir together and mingling with Muslims. 

You see, historical facts and imagination weave a complex web in the mind and pictures emerge there as if you were witnessing them happening. I was reading a book on the Dhobi caste and knew a dhobi who looked like Shyama. There are migrant Dhobi families in Kanchrapara near Kolkata.


Out of Print: John, I was very curious about the extent to which you engaged with Alka when translating this novel. But before you answer that, I was thinking about word choice. In ‘Shyama Dhobi’, for example, you use ‘grannies and aunties’ rather than alternatives such as grandmothers and aunts. Why those words? Was it the original text that suggested them, or did you make the decision based on other considerations.

John: I had a couple different reasons for choosing ‘grannie’ and ‘auntie’ over ‘grandmother’ and ‘aunt.’ In the Hindi, to give the readers some context, the words are dadi-tai. The full passage in the English reads: ‘Shyama recalled how Kulbhushan’s grannies and aunties often wagged their tongues and spouted this same kind of nonsense at his house, simply because of his skin’s burnt, baked colour.’
 
My translation decisions are often based not merely on the basic meaning of the words but also my interpretation of what is happening in and around the narrative, as well as in the character’s psychology. You had asked about my creative collaboration with Alka: this excerpted passage is actually an interesting example of adaptation in translation. This mental aside had belonged to Gobindo in the Hindi original, as he cautions Ma to stop giving Shyama such a hard time about his looks and marriage prospects. During the editing process, Alka had passed me a note shifting the rumination into Shyama’s perspective. So I translated accordingly.
 
Probably the biggest reason I chose ‘grannie’ and ‘auntie,’ rather than ‘grandmother’ and ‘aunt,’ is due to how I heard the tone of the line in my head – my third ear. Alka’s writing style has a light, colloquial quality: the echo word dadi-tai is itself echoed by ulat-sulat a short ways down the line. ‘Grannie’ and ‘auntie’ captured this parallelism and the playful repetitiveness of the complaint better than the more formal ‘grandmother’ and ‘aunt.’
 
Secondly, my translation of specific words is also sieved through how I read the character. For instance, Shyama was described in a recent review of the book as ‘loyal’ and ‘sensitive.’ But in his voice – especially during his turbulent, adolescent years – I also picked up notes of jaded dissatisfaction, even teenage rebelliousness. Since his early boyhood, Shyama is beset by hardship – from being reminded of his ugliness by his mother, to witnessing the recognisable, syncretic cultural world of East Bengal collapse around him, to losing his father to a cannabis stupor after Gobindo’s economic patron, the cinema-hall-owning Tulsyan Babu, ‘betrays’ him by abruptly migrating to Calcutta. Later, Shyama also receives the rude awakening that his identity as a Hindu Dhobi may itself be a lie, since he was delivered into his parents’ lap by a wandering fakir.
 
What does this have to do with choosing ‘grannie’ and ‘auntie’ over ‘grandmother’ and ‘aunt’? A lot, to my mind. I imagined a voice embittered by such experiences, in a context like this one, as being slightly pejorative and dismissive. ‘Grandmother’ and ‘aunt’ are neutrally descriptive nouns, the kinds of kinship terms a person might use if he were formally addressing a relative or reporting a situation objectively. Having a character say ‘his grandmother’ versus ‘his grannie’ is obviously tonally different: the latter is more personal, perhaps less respectful; it also hints at the speaker’s relationship to the person in question. Here, I wanted to signal curtness and exasperation. Shyama is recollecting Kulbhushan’s relatives’ cruel treatment of him, an experience Shyama identifies with. I also wanted this flippant-sounding diction to act as a clear screen into Shyama’s values: he doesn’t like this mean-spirited, frivolous talk, and feels protective of his friend.
 
Just quickly, a few adjacent considerations. The episode Shyama recollects is also one that Kulbhushan specially mulls over in Chapter One. I consciously chose the words ‘grannie’ and ‘auntie’ in this chapter to fit Kulbhushan’s ostentatiously wry and ironic tone. By replicating the same diction here, I was able to amplify the connection between these familiar episodes and the overlaps between the two characters – as well as to suggest, faintly, that Shyama may be recollecting the exact words Kulbhushan imparted to him. Personally, I also found that the sharp ‘ie’ of these words gave the sentence a faster-moving sonic energy, which I preferred for the narrative pacing.

Out of Print: Thank you so much, both of you, for your careful and thoughtful responses that offer us windows into your creative thought processes. Alka, the idea of the picture forming as the story and character develop, a picture that carries forward, or at the very least, walks along with the narrative is fascinating and important. 

And John, very much appreciate the complexity of thought, and the balance of emotional and psychological that goes into making word choices. I was also very interested to hear about how the translation feeds back into the story – an additional layer of refinement.
 
I know that you have had many conversations with each other but I wondered if there was something you would like to ask each other that we could share with our readers. 


John: Hi Alka. The question I’d like to ask you is this: 
Fiction writing and literary translation are, in some ways, artistically similar. For example, they both pay special attention to shared stylistic factors – characterisation, tone, register, pacing, internal resonance, the rhythm of sentences, and of course placing oneself in new, imagined perspectives. And yet, the creative approaches guiding both art forms are different. 
 
In my head, I’ve sometimes compared translation to pacing down the ‘sleeper’ boards on a railway track and figuring out how to redesign their engineering purpose. If any element of my parallel track is shoddily built – screws loosely bolted, a ravine not bridged – then the long, bumpy ride in English could make my readers bored, grumpy, or aware they're riding on the ‘translation ticket.’ One could liken the successive sleeper boards, linguistically, to words and sentences; or from a narrative perspective, to scenes and chapters. They secure the track so that the rails don't sag, the train wheels don't slip – the whole novel doesn't derail!

American writer George Saunders, speaking on the technical craft of storytelling, describes a story as a ‘linear temporal phenomenon’ and ‘system for the transfer of energy’ that ‘makes its meaning at speed, a small structural pulse at a time.’ He asserts that the writer's job is to make ‘stations around the track’ that serve as ‘manifestations of writerly charm…. Bursts of honesty, wit, powerful language, humor … a swath of dialogue’ that pulls the reader forward through the narrative. As a translator, my task is to rebuild those stations and retain that energy. But I wonder: how do you go about creating this ‘track of stories’ in the first place? 
 
Within the Hindi world, you are regarded as a master storyteller who consciously innovates on form. In interviews, you’ve extolled the joy of writing novels because of the freedom it offers ‘to say whatever in whichever way.’ Interestingly, there also seems to be significant overlap between your novel and short story writing; Kalikatha via Bypass and Register Me as Kulbhushan were originally inspired by earlier short stories you had written. The individual chapters in Register Me as Kulbhushan also read like long stories or novellas, with smaller story cycles inside. How would you describe the mechanics of your storytelling process? How do you guide the train across a multidimensional terrain to its final destination? 


Alka: Interesting question, John! I am looking at my storytelling through your eyes as a train hurtling down to its destination crossing bridges and mountains, soaking in all the air, mist, and dust all the way. 

I think the mechanics of my storytelling are an unpredictable blend of facts, surmises, imaginations, and even fantasy. Once I start writing, they all curiously combine together to lead me on. Many a times, it’s like seeing something happening before my eyes as I write it. 
I was told by a 90-year-old man from Kushtia that he had seen Gandhi on the station in 1946 as the train had stopped on its way to Noakhali. It was easy to find the picture of Gandhi at Kushtia on the net and to find out what he had said to the public. 

So you see, my imagination took me to Shyama Dhobi abstaining from eating meet and killing migratory birds as his other relatives did after Gandhi whispered something in his ears. That would also make his friendship possible with a strictly vegetarian Jain like Kulbhushan. 

Kulbhushan has appeared or rather someone like him has appeared in my first published story. Basically both persons belonged to the marginalised category –  marginalised due to some physical or mental defect or even business failure – part of the group who survive, in India, on the charity of close relatives. They go about doing all kinds of errands for the family they live off of, with a perpetual smile on their faces. 

My question to you is: How did you cross so many linguistic, cultural, historical and political boundaries to translate with so much energy? 


John: A complex question 
– I think my answer about ‘energy’ has several components. It helps that I majored in South Asian Studies in university, which gave me a sort of broad, background knowledge of India – supplemented, of course, by my own fascination with the country! Secondly, I’ve also had a lot of direct experience living there; I spent several months at a time in different Indian cities, like Jaipur, Lucknow, and Delhi, while strengthening my Hindi and Urdu at intensive language programs, not to mention research I did on a Fulbright. At a basic level, I guess you could say that my antennae have been primed to pick up on certain linguistical and cultural signals, lowering some of the normal barriers to translation.  
 
The signals come in different types. Sometimes, they are plot-related – such as the particular shade of abandonment Gobindo feels, after Tulsyan Babu clandestinely flees Kushtia, and how this relates to dharma, and his personal beliefs in patron-client relations. These notions are reflected a bit in the story he tells Shyama about the duty Raja Ram owes to his subjects; and, conversely, the fealty loyal subjects owe to their king. The betrayal Gobindo is subjected to is therefore more than economic. It is also, in another way, cosmic, impacting a whole way of being: with the flight of Kushtia’s patron class, his entire moral, social philosophy – underpinning his views of society, what people owe one another – collapses. 

Recognising this dynamic is one form of energy. Elsewhere, energy dwells in the music that is created from cadence and language, such as in your natural, colloquial narration, which at times resembles oral storytelling and, at others, the moods and cogitations of the characters, as the narration slips in and put of their perspectives. A small punch-up of energy may be contained in a joke, a clever turn of phrase, or a combustible doubling of Hindi compound verbs. Essentially, whatever generates an ’oomph!’ in the original Hindi text, the English is asked to imitate. Energy can also be latently stored in cultural context that is perhaps in need of coaxing out. What number of Kushtia’s residents, for instance, would have viewed Gandhi as an almost supernatural ‘Baba’ holy figure, in addition to being a leading Independence leader? Other translators might not have expended energy trying to retain the spiritualistic texture of the darshan, which I’m somewhat familiar with from deities in temples. For me, these small nuances are deeply embedded in the ‘placedness’ of translating, which is another way of saying the fine details.
 
I’m reminded of a meta-fictional conceit in Japanese novelist Haruki Murakami's famous novel, IQ84, which operates, I suspect, as a sort of analogy towards how he imagines his own creative process. In the novel, there is a mysterious, beautiful teenage girl who has a powerful story she wants to share with the world. The problem is she lacks the means to do so, and a young cram school teacher is enlisted, who is also an aspiring novelist, to help her tell the tale. Within the metaphysical system Murakami establishes, the girl is labelled a ‘perceiver’ able to supernaturally grasp and intuit the fundamentals of the story from another world. The teacher's (or translator's) task, in my analogy, called the ‘receiver,’ is to write it. 

I don’t know why, but when I first read the book in college around 2013, I had always imagined that Murakami was somehow allegorizing his relationship with his own English translators, though it is probably more likely that he was meditating on his creative writing process as a whole.
 
The ‘perceiver’ possesses the ability to tap into invisible frequencies that shape the raw form the story will take – what the girl in the book hands over and dictates to the teacher. You could perhaps compare these sensations to what unfolds in the translator’s mind while reading. The artistic challenge for the teacher, or translator, is how to embody that story in language – make it animate and concrete – so that its internal resonance and power can be shared with others. The ‘receiver’ must rely on his own literary craft, and relative mastery over language, to bring it into reality. 
 
I should mention that I had seldom come across the cultural geography of Bengal, East Pakistan, or Bangladesh in my work or travels before undertaking this translation. For any translator – but more so, the Western one – there will be subtle cultural cues he will miss or misconstrue; nuances that he will fail to pick up. I remember that in the case of my first book translation, a former university professor told me that she was relieved I had decided to co-translate the book with somebody else. She really didn’t mean this as a slight; rather, it was an acknowledgment of a reality. We Western translators who work from languages with fewer fraternal commonalities with English – Chinese, Hindi, or Arabic, say – probably have more hurdles to cross than someone translating from the European Romance languages. Daniel Weissbort, the former director of the Iowa Translation Workshop, called this twin linguistic-civilizational dilemma the ‘double labyrinth.’ 
 
Indira, you had expressed interest, in your first set of questions, about Alka’s and my collaboration. I was privileged to have Alka as my author partner – both because our creative ‘frequencies’ are similar, but also because of her own accomplished bilingualism and command of English. She would carefully read the drafts I sent her and offer her considered suggestions, regarding words or phrasings, which were like stylistic nudges prodding the English to adopt her voice. Certainly, her veteran storytelling skills assisted in training and prompting the English, at times, to do the appropriately energetic somersaults! I also learned a lot about how to translate the story from observing her feedback, in conjunction with the source text.
 
If what I’ve described so far constitutes a ‘perceiving’ component, a form of close reading, then there is also the ‘receiving’ dimension, within which the translator casts the story in his own imagination and language. This stage involves a heavy engagement with words, clauses, and interpretations. My first stage of work maybe corresponds to what people imagine literary translation to be: I somewhat mechanically assemble chains of semantic meaning, one link at a time, often with the help of reference materials – I am not a native speaker. At this stage, I do my best to extract all the pertinent information and energy a line wants to convey. As I am laying the first draft of the text, I will experimentally rephrase a line three or four different times, with the view of going back later to select which parts of my mock-ups I liked best. Often, I circle parts of sentences that I prefer, and remix them.  After I’ve produced several paragraphs, then a full scene in this way – which serviceably mimes the tone, voice, or atmosphere of the original – something magical occurs. 
 
I think we are all familiar with the genie in the lamp. For translation, mine is the ‘genie of the track.’ Rather than rubbing a lamp, the djinn fantastically’ appears after I have conscientiously laid the boards of my track in a certain way. Once the fortuitous, magical pattern has been assembled, a djinn whisps up over the fragments of language and begins to offer his supranatural guidance on how the boards can be more effectively arranged. This is the translator’s second act of ‘perceiving’ – or maybe ‘receiving’ of instructions! The djinn will gesture and suggest, ‘Rewrite the sentence in this way, with these entirely new materials, because in English the character’s voice sounds like this. Only then will your wish be granted.’ Or, the djinn will fly over a misshapen, wonky stretch of track, stroke his beard, and complain, ‘This section is literally fine, but it’s too long; better you curve it, or break it up, for the train to maintain its speed.’ His wish is my command.
 
So I say, ‘Yes, boss,’ to this funny specie of djinn who unconsciously articulates for me the wish I did not know I had – only that he expects me to do the work required to fulfill it. So I go back to the drawing board and implement these high frequency changes. And that’s when the spell settles; you realize that what you have now written, somehow, is actually a closer, better translation than what you had written while slavishly adhering to the original language. The track is no longer a diagram or model, but a pulsing, electrified circuit for the transfer of energy; the djinn conducts the ghost train over that section of track you have built, gives you the thumbs up, and then poofs away until he is needed again.
 
I’d be remiss not to add that the djinn is a bit of a trickster. Since the voice of the translated text and the voice of the translator are so tightly interwound, the djinn will sometimes speak to you in the overpowering voice of your own creative muse, while whispering the artistic secrets of the original text more gently. The two overlapping voices, sometimes, can be difficult to distinguish from each other, and you have to be hyper-vigilant, or strain your ears. You go back and examine the original engineering blue-print you’d drawn up from the language, and scratch your head over where the track forked in the wrong direction, wondering how to bring it back. In some cases, this is achieved by restoring a less enchanting, more ‘literal’ line you had for whatever reason earlier discarded. Then something clicks, and slides into place; you’re back on track. But none of this would be possible if you had not entertained both the djinn’s good and bad ideas. 

This is how the process works: back and forth, between the hovering spirit and the mechanical engineering plan. Interestingly, the title of Murakami’s book, IQ84, refers to the world that is created from the original 1984 into a shared reality with two moons. In my translation analogy, the new work is inherently a world of two moons, which binds it to the original but also gives it dual energy.


Out of Print: This is an extraordinarily special conversation. Thank you for being so generous, both of you. Alka, your voice was considered, restrained, focussed, insightful. While John, you plunged into sharing your thoughts around the process and complexities of translation with energy. I am thrilled that Out of Print has the opportunity to share your conversation with our readers.



Cover image, Out of Print 60

A State of Unrest by Sangram Majumdar



Shyama Dhobi, Where Are You?’ is excerpted, with permission, from Register Me as Kulbhushan, Penguin, 2026.

 

Sunday, July 5, 2026

On 'LIKE A SCENE FROM A MOVIE' by Anjum Hasan

A Note on her story 'LIKE A SCENE FROM A MOVIE' by author ANJUM HASAN that appears in Out of Print 60


A chance meeting with a reader the other day, a fellow Bangalorean who said he’d liked this story, led me back to it – something I wrote twenty years ago and had all but forgotten. It appeared in an anthology called Twenty-One Under Forty published by Zubaan in 2007 but didn’t make it to either of my later short story collections. When this reader said it was hard to imagine today a traffic policeman who ponders things; and also that there was a time when most everyone he knew wanted to move to America, I didn’t know what he meant. So I went home and dug out the piece, finding it full of now anachronistic details one can all too easily be sentimental about. The narrator is often walking to the bus-stop to get to somewhere unhurriedly on a bus; he has a small income from reviewing novels for the papers; he slips into an internet cafĂ© to send emails, and there are sentences of gobsmacking innocence such as 'I called Nikhil on his mobile phone'. And yes, it features an off-beat traffic policeman. None of these were the main point when I wrote the story, they were just the plain weave of everyday life into which the plot had been worked. 

But now these elements stood out. The old and the new are held in balance at this early millennium juncture – the city has a past discernible in those still leisurely rhythms and a present in which not just mobile phones and the internet but also the narrator himself are new to Bangalore. He experiences the city as a place of risk and opportunity but in an altogether modest register, not in that market-hungry, obsessively entrepreneurial, boisterously expansionist way that would soon come to be linked with this city. And America promises middle-class success but also, to one character, somewhere you go to break free, to know a dizzying freedom from responsibility. That adventure too now, likely, a thing of the past. So rather than create nostalgia for what was, the story could, two decades on, merely stand as a measure of how swiftly and surely we have arrived at this situation: of the world simply being too much with us. And that is something – the clogged surfeit which means there’s nothing to look forward to and no way to go back – it is harder to make fiction from. 

Anjum Hasan, May 2026 



Out of Print 60



Wednesday, May 6, 2026

Out of Print Workshop at MAP | Cats


Out of Print Workshops


In collaboration with the Museum of Art & Photography


On the last weekend in March, a group of writers gathered at the Museum of Art and Photography as part of the Write from Art, Write from Story collaboration between Out of Print magazine and the Museum.


The writing workshop was conducted by Dr Indira Chandrasekhar, the founder of Out of Print. In these workshops conducted for MAP, Indira uses the visual from the exhibition around which the workshop centres as the inspiration for the writing that participants work on. 


This workshop focussed on the exhibition 'The Many Lives of the Cat' on its closing weekend. It was an exhibition that explored how the feline has been represented in art across the ages through different regions of the subcontinent. To fully engage with the visual the writers were treated to a walk-through of the exhibition conducted by one of the docents. Many small discussions, triggered by the docent’s own views and ways of exploring the exhibition were an interesting consequence. At the end of the walk-through, Indira suggested that the writers allow their own imaginations to inspire them, and not necessarily be guided by what they had heard. It turned out, there was really no need for her to have stated that – the range of ideas and narratives that emerged was fascinating and diverse. 


The participants spanned many ages – our youngest was about nine – and many different levels of engagement with writing and art. They responded to different works in the exhibition: from a detailed miniature of centuries past to vibrant pinks in contemporary depiction; from the definitive and pictorial in Patua art to the dark intensities in a charcoal drawing; from a cat centred in the green of tropical foliage to a cat positioned off-centre drawing viewers focus to the green of a capsicum on a kitchen table; from a multi-headed Gond representation to the ambiguous message in a large embroidered panel. The discussions before the writers started to put their thoughts down about what they had seen in the paintings was truly interesting, examining the psychology of the cat, of the human, and showing how the visual can trigger imagination and create story.


In most Out of Print writing engagements, writers are encouraged to finish the pieces they developed during the workshop and send them in to the magazine editors. Select pieces are then published. Below, we list five out of the many fine works developed at the workshop. 


JAYASHRI JAYARAMAN | THE CAT THAT KNEW TOO MUCH

SANCHARY GHOSH | NAVRATRI – THE 11TH MORNING

NIVEDITHA K PRASAD | DESERT CAT AND THE OASIS

SHUBHA SHASTRY | WHERE WE LEARNED TO BELONG

ASHWIN DEV BHAT | LOSS OF PHYSICS






Out of Print Workshop at MAP: 'The Cat that Knew Too Much' by Jayashri Jayaraman


Jayashri Jayaraman



Once upon a time, there lived a cat named ‘Cat’.


Cute

Cuddly

Ugly

Elusive

Ferocious

Hypnotic

Watchful

Untamed

Unknowable


Cat the cat, wanted to be everything.


A reasonable ambition

For a creature that has been

Worshipped as divine

Blamed for bad luck

Sometimes both, in the same lifetime


And so it began where all things begin…

With feeling!


Love

Longing

Fury

Fear

Bravery

Boredom

Dread

Delight

Wonderment


The cat wanted to feel everything.


A curious pursuit

For a creature that trusts instinct over emotion…

That reads the air before the room

That senses before it understands

That chooses before it knows why


And so, it learned quickly

What’s feeling, without knowing?


The keeper

The watcher

The chosen

The coveted

The show-off

The trickster

The beloved

The believer

The dreamer


The cat knew it had to be in the company of all.


A paradox, really

For cats are solitary beings

Yet masters of co-existence


Ignore you, it will

Insist on bringing you an offering, it must

Sitting where it shouldn’t, well, it can’t be helped

On plans. On pans. On laptops. On laps.


Skilfully walking the tight rope of contradictions

But is one life ever enough?

When so much of it slips by in sleep


Not for a creature

That must follow every flicker

Every sound

Every maybe


‘Curiosity killed the cat,’ they say

But satisfaction brought it back

And that’s probably why, the cat has nine lives


Or so the stories go…


Nine lives, none fully spent

Eight nights it watched you sleep

Seven secrets buried in its gaze

Six senses sharper than yours

Five shadows it leaves behind

Four corners it royally claims

Three things it will never forget or forgive

Two worlds it treads between

One moment before it decides


In all of them

Cat the cat, remains unowned, unknowable, unfinished


Because a cat is never just a cat

It wasn’t trying to be everything at all

It already was


And the nine lives?

Perhaps, not for the cat

But for everyone trying to understand it.




Out of Print Workshop at MAP: 'Navratri: The 11th Morning' by Sanchary Ghosh

Navratri: The 11th Morning

Sanchary Ghosh


Inspired by the Kalighat Patua of Jagdamba



The day after Durga slew Mahishasur, Her mount, the Lion Somnandi, woke to a startlingly bright morning. As His senses slowly arrived in the land of the waking, He felt disoriented – ten dark, gloomy days of the sun that felt like a distant memory had been replaced by a riot of colours and textures. 


Was this softly glowing, faintly golden-green carpet of grass the same murky one He had fallen asleep on? These shrubs looked fuller somehow, the forest shimmering alive with contrasting light and shadow plays. The events of yesterday slowly came back to Him. 

Somnandi recalled the volume of asura underling necks He’d snapped, all the blood and chunks of meat ingested. The memory brought satisfaction; the pride of knowing that He was instrumental in the downfall of the enemy plaguing the human pets of the Devas. Unfortunately, that also explained the hangover-like grogginess He was experiencing – He had not eaten whole carcasses, but the innumerable bites from the hordes slain probably constituted overeating. 


He got up and stretched, thinking of drinking some water. 


The very next second, He was assailed by a horrible churning in His stomach. He dropped down shaking, His entire focus hijacked by the pressure building up in His chest. It felt awfully like the contents of the last ten days were still inside and wanted to come out. He willed the churning sensation away – as a divine being, such things as odd and sickening feelings did not dare bother Him. 


But it did not work! Now, Somnandi started panicking because He had never failed to exercise His will, thus far. He decided to summon His Caretaker; She would fix him right away. 


Somnandi roared, a sound that shook the entire forest and made the animals hide. Durga heard His call, appearing instantly. 


‘What’s wrong, dear?’ She said, an amused smile playing on Her lovely face. 


He was irritated and roared again, but more softly this time. Couldn’t She sense His State? Why was She smiling and not making the dreadfulness go away? His insides cramped in another wave of rebellion against Him, but all She did was bend to stroke His mane and back. He liked it, but it wasn’t fixing Him. 


‘Aww, you’ve gotten sick. I told you not to nibble on the demons, didn’t I? But you just had to sample!’ She chastened. Somnandi narrowed His eyes at Her; now was not the time for a scolding. 


‘Darling, their flesh is poisonous. Not much even I can do right now. Best let it all come out; the sooner it leaves your system, the better you’ll feel,’ She said. 


He whimpered in humiliation and pain, as She cuddled Him, and encouraged Him to upchuck the contents of His stomach. At least, there were no witnesses to this embarrassment – a small perk of Their divinity.




Out of Print Workshop at MAP: 'Desert Cat and the Oasis' by Niveditha Prasad


Desert Cat and the Oasis


Niveditha Prasad


The dry, dry terrain unfolded for miles outside the window. There was much to take in from the view. There was the pond of a thousand lotuses that my husband had built, eastern-style domes made using techniques from the West and sculptures from the South. It all seemed so banal now. Beyond the pond, across the high walls, was the serpentine road. On cooler afternoons, there would be traffic. Carriages rolled by, carrying the dust of the world with them. That is why I began to sit by the window habitually: to see the carriages, count them one by one, to let a dust storm blow in through the windows and let it take me away with it, to let myself be dust that belongs to nothing, not even this fortress.


Sometimes at night, I could hear the faint sound of song from the road. I would lie awake, watching the palace lights dance on the walls, hoping, praying that some great shadow from far away would make pattern into my room. It never did. I would lie awake instead, catching some stray words from these road songs: a lover left behind, a lover turned traitor, anthems to strange gods, and long ballads about the countryside. Songs about the Some Other Place. 


I was bored of the view. I walked from one window to the next, peering out at the frangipani tree that was now within eyeshot. On happier days, the cat would disappear from the palace, only to be found napping on the tree she was named after. But Champa was not there today. She had gone missing five days ago. Longer than usual. The entire household had been ordered to search for Champa the Diamond-eyed. I had sent offerings to be made at all the temples in the city for her return. My pleadings to the gods had now turned into curses.


Just then, the young girl arrived bearing yet another package. Gifts from the husband: a ring of lapis lazuli, silk, and a gold girdle to go with it. I ran my hand over the fabric. It was soft, so soft that I could thread the ring with it. Champa would have liked to nap on it. But she wasn't there today and I had no use for the silk. I tossed it aside and gestured to the girl to take them away. She could have them. How did it matter, I had already given away so many of my gifts. As always, the girl bowed with gratitude. As she was leaving, she said, ‘Oh, the cat is back. The other women saw her sauntering into your room just now.’


Finally! I hurriedly made my way into the inner chamber. The hallway to the chamber was lined with large portraits of the forefathers and hard-won trophies. But the gallery also turned darker and darker with each step, the windows became progressively smaller, and the doors heavier. If it weren't for Champa's surprise arrival, I would not venture into the deeper parts of the apartment so early in the day.


How dare that wretched creature stay away for so long. Did I not love her, care for her, provide for her? Everything that a cat could possibly hope for in her life, this palace had it. And yet, she had begun to slip away regularly. Her clandestine comings and goings were entirely a mystery. One time, she returned with a gash across her pretty face. One of those urchin-cats near the temple must have challenged her to a combat and then cut her to size. Any sensible feline would have learnt about the dangers of the world beyond and surrendered absolutely to the pleasures of home. But not my Champa. A week later, she disappeared at night and only returned the next evening. 


As I entered the room, I saw the Diamond-eyed girl nestled against the foot of the bed. I picked her up gently even as I sharpened my voice to chide her saying, ‘Why have you chosen to return now, Your Highness?’ She purred, but not quite apologetically. Freeing herself from my hands, she strutted her way back to the bed, snuck in below, emerging from it moments later with something in her mouth. It was a coarse piece of cloth, yellow like her and frayed all around the edges. It was almost a rag but Champa had evidently taken a fancy to it. She placed it on my lap as if making an offering, curled into my body, and resumed lounging.

 

There was a thunderclap. The sound of rain filled the room. I closed my eyes and pressed the cloth tightly to my face – hoping, praying that it would take me into the world where my cat had been. 





Out of Print Workshop at MAP: 'Where We Learned to Belong' by Shubha Shastry


Where We Learned to Belong


Shubha Shastry


In an alleyway no wider than a breath, where sunlight arrived only as a thin ribbon cradled between leaning buildings, Vasudha and her cat, Lila, made a home out of almost nothing. The room they inhabited was hardly wider than a bedroll. The walls were stained with old paint, remnants of years of dirt, carried the faint memory of lives that had passed through before her. A small single window, not bigger than a book, opened not to the street or the sky, but to another wall, where moss grew diffidently in cracks. And yet, where space failed them, closeness filled in – quietly, completely.


Lila had come to Vasudha on a night of steady rain, a soft trembling sphere of downy warmth, 

making an impression like the breath of a whisper in her palm. The rain had fallen in relentless sheets, flooding the alley and making the stones slick and treacherous. Vasudha had been sitting just inside her doorway, watching the water gather in uneven pools, when she heard it – a small, sliver of sound, almost swallowed by the rain. At first, she thought she was imagining it. Loneliness had a way of turning everyday sounds into something palpably alive. But then it came again, sharper this time, insistent.


She followed the sound into the alley and found the kitten pressed against the wall, fully soaked, trembling but quietly unafraid. Its hazel eyes, wide and calm, met hers as though it had been waiting. 


Vasudha paused but for a moment before scooping up the lithe furry creature into her hands. It was lighter than she expected, all bones and wet fur, its heartbeat fluttering steadily against her palm.


‘You shouldn’t be here,’ she whispered, though she didn’t know if she meant the kitten or herself.


The kitten answered with a soft, shrill but resolute sound, something between a cry and a protest.


That was how Lila came into her life – not with ceremony, but with quiet certainty.


From that night on, they learned about each other in ways that needed no language. Vasudha got to know the rhythm of Lila’s breathing, a crest and a fall with every beat, and she felt safe. She noticed how Lila liked to curl beneath her chin, pressing close enough that their warmth turned indiscernible. She learned the peculiar tilt of Lila’s head when she was curious, the flick of her tail when she was annoyed, the slow, deliberate blink that meant trust.

 

And Lila, in her own way, learned about Vasudha.


She learned the weight of Vasudha’s silences – the difference between the quiet of peace and the quiet of sorrow. On days when Vasudha’s movements grew slower, when her gaze lingered too long on nothing at all, Lila would saunter into her lap without her beckoning and press herself against Vasudha’s chest. She would stay there, unmoving, a small, steady presence, until Vasudha’s breathing synced with her own.


Their days unfolded in a kind of calm choreography.


In the mornings, Vasudha would wake carefully so as not to disturb Lila, though it rarely worked. Lila always woke up, stretching luxuriously before following Vasudha in tight circles. When Vasudha prepared food, simple meals, often no more than rice and whatever vegetables she could afford, Lila circled her ankles with stark precision. She never tripped her, got in the way, as though she understood the importance of balance in such a small space.


When Vasudha sat down to write, which she did most evenings by candlelight, Lila took her place beside the page. Sometimes she curled into a tight circle; other times she stretched out, her tail drifting lazily across the paper. More than once, it brushed against wet ink, leaving soft, unintended smudges that Vasudha never could erase.


“They make it better,” she would say, as if Lila needed reassurance.


The alley outside was rarely quiet. Footsteps echoed at odd hours, voices rose and fell in fragments, and somewhere nearby, a pipe dripped endlessly, marking time. But inside their room, the world softened. The noise became distant, almost unreal, like something occurring in another life.


Here, there was warmth.


Vasudha spoke to Lila, filling the space with boundless stories. She told Lila about places she had never been to – wide fields where the wind moved like water, oceans that stretched beyond horizons, cities filled with light, hope and joy. Her voice would grow lighter as she spoke, her hands gesturing as though she could shape the images through air.


Lila listened. She would watch Vasudha intently, her eyes mid-lidded, occasionally offering a soft blink or a slow purr, as though meeting every word.


Sometimes, Vasudha wondered if Lila believed her.


And she wondered if she believed herself.


But it didn’t seem to matter. The stories were less about truth and more about possibility, and in that small room, possibility was a form of sustenance.


There were nights when the cold crept in more insistently than usual. The thin walls held little warmth, and the damp seemed to settle into everything – into the bedroll, into Vasudha’s bones, into the very air they breathed. On those nights, the darkness felt heavier, seeping in from all sides, as though the walls were closing in around them.


Vasudha would pull Lila closer then, wrapping her arms around the small, warm body.


“Stay,” she would whisper. And Lila always did.


She would lean closer, impossibly close, until there was no space left between them. Her purring would begin as a faint vibration and grow steadier, filling the silence with something alive, something constant.


It was in those moments that Vasudha felt it most clearly – not just companionship, but something deeper, something that composed her, calmed her spirit.


A sense of being held and understood, even as she was the one doing the holding.


Seasons shifted, though in the alley, the changes were subtle. The shape of light altered, the air grew heavy or lighter, the sounds beyond every wall changed rhythm. Time passed, marked not by dates but by small transitions: Lila growing from a fragile kitten into a sleek, confident cat; Vasudha’s writing filling page after page.


Their world remained small, but it was not blank, empty.


One afternoon, a shaft of sunlight found its way through the tiny window and stretched across the floor, a bright, golden ray.


Lila spotted it first.


She walked towards it cautiously, her body low, her eyes wide with fascination. Then, with a sudden burst of energy, she pounced. Her paws landed squarely in the light, scattering dust into tiny, shimmering clouds.


Vasudha laughed, a rare, unguarded sound.


For a moment, the room felt larger than it was, bright, light and the air easier to breathe.


Lila continued her game, chasing the shifting light as it moved inch by inch across the floor. And Vasudha watched, her chest full of lightness.


In that cramped, shadowed space, they had built a kind of home that lived in the space between them – in shared warmth, in quiet understanding, in the steady presence of one life beside another.

And so, when the light faded and the alley returned to its familiar dimness, nothing essential was lost.

That night, as always, Vasudha lay down with Lila tucked close beneath her chin, her hand resting gently on the rise and fall of her small body.


Outside, the alley carried on, footsteps, voices, the endless drip of water.


Inside, there was only the soft rhythm of breathing, the quiet hum of a purr, and the unspoken certainty that neither of them was alone.


They were, in every sense, home to each other.