Malena Learns the Spices
Nabina Das
Balu lay over the quilt.
Spring was already here and nearly gone too in between space heaters and
drizzle. Neighbourhoods of this sort didn’t have the luck to enjoy the cool
breeze of swaying new-leafed trees of the better-off enclaves. The quilt –
Malena liked to roll it back during daytime and Balu liked to spread it back
later – was necessary because nights still could get chilly without warning.
Balu liked lying on the quilt and feeling its warm softness under his thighs
while eyeing the ceiling.
Malena guessed Balu wanted
to smoke very badly. But for that he’d have to get up and go out. Surely he
didn’t want to dress. In his striped pyjamas and yellowing undershirt, he
stared time to time at a floor fan whose whirr ruffled his wavy dark hair. His
neck slightly hanging from the side of the bed, he scratched his left cheek –
dark with the warmth of the day – with his right hand and then twirled a thin
silver ring on his right ring finger, a memento from his dead mother. Malena
watched his restlessness from the partitioned kitchen.
‘Melon, Balu?’ Malena came
in with a large bowl.
That encouraged Balu to sit
up. But these were nothing like the watermelons he knew as a growing boy. ‘Did
you sprinkle some red pepper powder?’
‘Where d’you learn that?’
‘God, in Madurai! Where
else? How many times I have to tell you, Molina?’ He laughed, a little
irritably.
In his thirties, he was generally
mild-mannered man and rarely got angry. He just worried. And sometimes, he
covered up his irritation with a chuckle. This was one such time. The melon
slices wet the sides of his mouth as he dug into them one by one, holding them
wide at both ends as though he was managing splits. Malena ate hers with a
plastic spoon, scooped out.
‘Where did you learn
that now?’ Balu pulled her hair with his sticky sugary hands, eager to break
the minor impasse.
‘In Anapra, Balu! Where
else?’ She smiled, not at all upset. Balu was looking for a new job. She
understood what caused him to suddenly turn acidic.
‘Man, it’s hot as if we are
in Madurai.’ He looked at the floor fan. ‘And they said it was spring in Jersey
City when I came to live here.’
The mention of Madurai made
both of them quiet for a while. What was it like there? Malena always wondered
and always asked Balu and he always recounted the same things over and over
again. Spiralling temples, dung-laden pastures, a musty line of shops, humid
sky, red hibiscus bunches, gentle cows. She’d never been there. He hadn’t been
there for years. Yet Madurai hovered between them like a temple itself,
especially to Malena, regal in description and intimate in its unknown sacred
depths.
It came up already the day
when Malena and Balu had first met. The wintry wind grabbing Malena’s face at
every lash had made her turn towards the only other passenger that was waiting
for a late night bus. He was in a shabby dark coat, hair all wild around his
frost-bitten temples, the colour of night. Malena hadn’t understood something
he said animatedly. ‘No problem.’ He had flashed a very white teethy smile. ‘Even
I don’t speak much Hindi,’ he’d said in English.
What Hindi? From where?
What was the man saying?
‘I’ve seen you earlier on
this route and wondered,’ he continued. ‘Indian woman. Alone at night. Not
good. I’m Balu.’ All this he said in a very heavy and strange accent.
She was surprised, as she
slowly got what he said. She wasn’t Indian as this man thought. Not, not
Indian. ‘Malena. Magdalena,’ she said, unsure whether to shake hands. Her
gloves were torn and it was getting colder with the long wait for the bus.
‘What part you from?’
Malena was astonished at how
quickly she was getting used to his heavy accent. And he still thought she was
from his country? ‘Juarez, Anapra.’
‘What?’ The man suddenly
stopped acting familiar. ‘Where’s that?’
‘Ay ay ay.’ Nervous, Malena
muttered the word ‘Mexico’ in an inaudible tone, wishing to get away from this
strange man. She wasn’t supposed to say all this to a-n-y-o-n-e here. She
couldn’t possibly choose to.
He said nothing. Just
scratched his hatless head for a while, pushing back the wavy mop from his forehead.
Perhaps he was embarrassed, thought Malena. India, did he say? It was somewhere
very far away, she knew that much.
‘I’m from Madurai.’ Balu
resumed the conversation. It is in the south, he said. Temples dot the town and
pigeons fly in hundreds to sit on the exquisitely carved stone relief, as
though they were a part of it and have come to life by some magic. Banana trees
sway like friendly hands and jasmine garlands in women’s freshly washed hair
inhale the depth of the nights. Balu, or Balamurugan was from the
pigeons-temple-banana-flowers city of Madurai.
Malena’s bus had arrived by
then. They both got into the bus. Both took window seats, one behind the other.
Balu sat in front of her. He was sitting sideways, so Malena could see his
profile. But he was quiet.
The next day they met
again. Same place.
‘Why did you think I was
from your place? Or did you?’ Malena’s question made him thoughtful. He rubbed
his eyes like a sleepy man.
‘Not from Madurai. I’d know
a woman from Madurai the moment I saw her,’ he said assertively, glancing at
her face. ‘I thought you were … from … maybe from the hills. Never mind.’
‘That’s okay, you don’t
have to pretend!’ She fished out mint drops from her purse while tucking her
gloves inside. Suddenly she felt an ease in talking to him. ‘Here, have one.’
For the next three months
they rode the same night bus, Balu went on and on about Madurai, how far he was
away from there, for how long … the water of Vaigai was in his eyes, or so
Malena thought.
‘I’m from the temple city.
Used to frolicking in the sacred thousand-pillared hall.’ He sighed. ‘And here
I live in a one-windowed hovel in Little India.’ That was when Malena was no
longer sitting behind him, but by his side. Then there was that evening she
gently touched Balu’s hand. He looked surprised but kept his dark hand curled
within hers, as though it was a soft crow fledgling taking refuge under a warm
wing. Winter was on the wane then. It was the end of March and thaw was all
around, wreaking havoc with the slush. She was in a white dress under her coat,
freshly ironed, and wearing a light flowery fragrance. Their breath on the
glass window of the bus seemed to create a thin sheath around them, which they
liked.
‘Malli!’ He went soft.
Malena understood why he
called her Malli or Molina, which he did from the third day of their
acquaintance. Although he knew now she was from Mexico he turned her into
Molina, which he said could be a name from the eastern hills of his country.
Kalimpong. Bhalukpung, Mokokchung. Such were the place names. Musical names.
‘For me you’re ‘Malli’, the
lovely jasmine flower. They’re abundant in my city.’
Balu’s Jersey job of a
packer in a Kinkos store didn’t dry up the jasmine petals in his head. Rather,
that became more pronounced as he fell deeper in love with Malena. Within six
months he had asked Malena to move in, apparently quite a daring proposal even
to himself. ‘We can do this only in this country. My old mother back home would
have kicked me for doing this Malli. But I’m sure she’d have liked you. The poor dead woman.’
Another spring had arrived
since she’d started living with Balamurugan from Madurai, who was currently
hoping to find another decent job. After all, he had a BA degree in Civil Administration.
Malena took a job at India Palace restaurant, close to their place, having
dumped the shop assistant’s job at the Dominican place two bus stops away.
India Palace? Oh, well.
*
The usually mild tinkle of
the bell above the door when Malena entered the restaurant seemed to ring
rather prominently. The inside of this Jersey City Indian eatery was relatively
empty, save for the space occupied by the large Mrs Dhanjal who was counting at
the cash register – a job leftover from the previous evening.
The still-unfamiliar aroma
of cumin was already in the air and Malena knew two of the cooks in the kitchen
were busy preparing the spicy pea-potato filling for samosas while another was
attending to a frying cauldron bubbling with gradually scorching oil. That
reminded her of fresh empanadas taken out on a tiny shop front in downtown
Ciudad Juarez by her old neighbour Rafael Acevedo. The whiff of parsley would
make her stop to look at the old man’s home-cooked fare. His wife’s strident
voice would emerge from the back where he lived in a shack of a house. ‘Hurry
up and take the next batch,’ the fifty-year old virago, would yell, ‘You’re
late, Rafa!’
‘You’re late by ten minutes
Molina,’ said Mrs Dhanjal, without even looking up. She was portly, with a heavily
made-up face and a tight nylon Indian dress carving out her middle-aged lumpy
belly and bumpy breasts. Malena stopped daydreaming and came back to the
air-conditioned, sandalwood smelling, Taj-Mahal-wall-hanging-adorned, sitar-tune-swept
interior of the restaurant she’d been working in for the past couple months.
She sneezed.
An ornate clock on the
restaurant wall quietly chimed eight o’ clock, coinciding with Malena’s
sneeze. Mrs Dhanjal slid shut the cash register that jingled loudly with the coppers
and dimes accompanied by the ringing of her multi-coloured bangles, a mix of
glass and gold.
‘Had to pick up my new
clothes from the tailor Madam,’ Malena said putting down her bulky brown
five-dollar imitation purse she purchased from Chinatown. Everyone at the
restaurant called Mrs Dhanjal ‘madam’ and everyone here called her Molina.
Mrs Dhanjal now looked at
Malena. The younger woman was trying to pin her slippery dupatta on both her
shoulders. Her pleasant plumpness appeared seductive under the bright polyester
outfit with its generous neckline and well-cut A-line sides. The short sleeves
highlighted her strong smooth pale-brown arms while the loose salwars fell
comfortably around her ankles right above a pair of buckled high-heeled shoes.
‘Those are a bit showy.’ Mrs
Dhanjal was not known to shower unconditional praise. She wanted Malena to wear
plain sandals, Indian-style. ‘Now, remember to practice your ‘shukriyaa’ every
now and then. We have lot of ‘angrez’ clientele that love to hear that.’
Malena nodded. She took her
Hindi phrasebook with Spanish translations to Imran the head cook. Directing
Gurnaam to add a touch of asafoetida to the potatoes, Imran listened to Malena.
‘You’re doing it fine,
Molina beti,’ the fifty-something cook said. ‘Don’t kill your sleep
over this. That you’re trying should make everyone realise its worth.’
‘I’m always scared someone
might find me out and send me back.’
‘Find out how? That you
don’t speak like people from my pind? God knows even my own son
doesn’t speak like that.’
‘What’s pind?’
Imran’s explanation took
Malena back to her own pind. She started dreaming of steaming frijoles soup and
fresh guacamole with crispy tostadas for snacks. Even huevos motulenos to be
had after waking up.
Ay ay ay.’ She nodded.
She's looking for her pind.
Nabina Das is the author of a
poetry collection Into the Migrant City (Writers Workshop,
2013) and a short fiction collection The House of Twining Roses:
Stories of the Mapped and the Unmapped, LiFi Publications, 2013-14. A 2012
Charles Wallace Fellow in Creative Writing, University of Stirling, UK, and a
2012 Sangam House Lavanya Sankaran Fiction Fellow, India, her debut poetry
collection Blue Vessel, Zaporogue Press, Denmark was listed as one
of the best of 2012 in India. Her debut novel Footprints in the Bajra,
Cedar Books, 2010 has received critical acclaim, while Nabina’s poetry and
prose have been published in several international journals and anthologies. An
MFA from Rutgers University, US, a Linguistics & English MA from JNU,
Delhi, a 2007 Joan Jakobson (Wesleyan University) and a Julio Lobo fiction
scholarship winner (Lesley University), Nabina has worked as a journalist and
media person in India and the US. She teaches Creative Writing in classrooms
and workshops and occasionally blogs at nabinadas13.wordpress.com.
Curious, slightly wandering tale with some lovely images.
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